I have lost and found myself more times than I can count,
Caught between chaos and silence –
Somewhere in limbo but I can’t describe where…
No one could hear my screams,
No one would breathe air into my drowning lungs,
Asphyxiated by my own tears –
Oceans created from my eye.
Alone and afraid I panicked –
Inhaling water mistaken for air
Fear convinced me that I was already dead.
Curtains close
Screen fades to black
The end…

(waiting for the applause)

Until you realize this is only Act One.
By some miracle my lung didn’t collapse…
I stand up.
Oceans only two inches deep
I was holding my own head to the ground,
I let Fear convince me that I was already dead –
I accepted that I was going to drown.
I never tried to save myself until it was almost too late
The moment I realized no one was coming…

No one was coming to rescue me,
Help was not one the way,
My reality of being alone.
Now it wasn’t the water –
But fear in itself,
Suffocating the life from my eyes;
Hypnotized by my own doubt and bullshit
I wasn’t ready to die
But i did not know how to live
Yet I took a chance on myself
With nothing to lose.
I lifted my head,
Choked up my doubt,
Took a breath in,

I made it.

I won the battle,
Waited to fight the war,
And won time and time again.
No longer waiting for tomorrow to come
Tomorrow is simply today,
So today I choose to live.
Over and over again I will choose to live.
I’ve been changed for the better
Through the worst of my life
If I had to the chance to do it over again
I wouldn’t.

Sometimes you have to choose to do more than survive.